I Still Can't Believe It Has Come To This

I just need to write. I just need to keep myself together. Anything to keep myself together.
I've had Alanis Morrisette's Jagged Little Pill album on repeat for the last while. Someone may know what that means, or what that feels like. Yeah, still one of my favorite albums. It sums things up perfectly. She always hits it.
I cried last night.
I feel like I'm falling apart. I need to keep myself together. I need to get it together.
I miss the kids around the house, its really not the same without them. They were the best escape from everything they were so fresh and not to mention funny! And I am really bummed about not being able to watch them grow up because they are both such big personalities that I just know they were going to be great. Maybe when they are old enough to decide for themselves they will come back, who knows?
Just Keep it together.
You took all that you could, it was free.

Im Best In Your Backseat Baby

I am having a hard time trusting things. But I hate worrying about things that, ultimately, I have no control over. Its a waste right?
So I need to just step back and see what happens.
When things blow up and all the dust clears, things are just that, clear.