To My Love

Dear Love,


From the moment I first kissed you, just two kids sitting side by side my hand in yours, I knew I never wanted to be anywhere else with anyone else. And I knew that then, through all the bullshit and drama in high school, you were the one for me.


But I don't know if you've ever been as sure about this as I.


All I've ever really wanted was for us to be happy together and I really hope we can be.


Whatever it is that's pulling you away from me, I hope you can get over and get past it. I don't really understand whats going on with you. I've tried but I just don't get it.


I love you more than I could have ever imagined. I never really believed that much in love and in relationships, growing up I watched 2 marriages fall apart and that left me jaded to say the least.


But then I met you. You made me want those things, love and a solid relationship. Someone to count on no matter what, someone to make you feel completely loved.


After all the time we have spent together if those things are still something you don't want, or don't think your ready for then maybe this isn't what I thought it was. I thought we could be happy and in love for all the days of our lives but I know everyone is different and what I want may not always be the same as what you want.


I just want you to know that I love you, whole- heartily, mind. body and soul. I wanted a life with you. I'd have given everything for it, for you, for us. If you can't see that then you are really missing out.


In the end, I hope you find everything that you are looking for and more. I hope in life you will always be happy. I wish you nothing but the best.


I Love You.

I was built to survive. My body, frail as it may appear to be, was definitely built to sustain. I have learned this. I am a survivor.
I'm not very certain about the direction my life is taking but I do know that with a brave face I will be okay. No matter what happens I will be fine. I don't need anyone. Its just me. and you know what? that's completely OK. I'm no longer afraid of the unknown I am no longer afraid to go on alone . I think I will be OK. Not right away, but soon enough.
I was built to survive. Remember this.