Its In The Stars

My recent, temporary , simple existence is about to change.
I don't know how I am supposed to handle this all. I'm not the only deciding factor so that complicates things and I'm not really even that sure what it is that I want. This is one of those things that I know will play out completely differently than I could have imagined, its always like that. Sometimes its all too much to hold and I can feel my knees buckling under the pressure. But I also know that this is the one thing in life that I want really bad. Wait and see that's all I can do for now.
How come when things all finally come together they being to fall apart every time?