The More Things Change The More They Stay The Same

There is still a lot of growing up to do.
Understandably so.
But now I know where I'm going. And that may not seem like a lot but to me its going to make a huge difference. I am as ready as I will ever be.
I was born ready.

What Do You Say When There Is Nothing Nice To Say?

Say you didn't much like someone and for some reason or another you had to speak at their funeral, what would you say?
Just a thought.
Other than that things keep on moving ahead and time waits for no one. So you'd better get a move on.
But right now I'm kinda stuck.

I've Learned That Everything In Life Comes At A Cost

I got a phone call last week that put the next 2 years of my life right back on course. I'm relieved and quite frankly I fucking deserve this. So there is something to look forward to and to be happy about. And also something real, something concrete to strive for. And I'm going to be the best.
I am thankful for this.
I know something that's missing in my life and I have started taking steps towards it. If I can get to a few of those I know things will be different and if they aren't well, then I'm hoping I find something meaningful in the quest.
Be careful what you wish for.
Things are changing, I can't really tell where its all heading. I know things will be okay no matter what so that makes me feel a lot better.
I used to be so afraid of change.

And at the end of the day when all is said and done, I'm very thankful.

A Street Car Named Desire

Did you ever read that play?
" A Street Car Named Desire "
Its about a lady named Stella and her abusive husband Stanley. And Stella's sister Blanche comes to visit/stay with them and tensions rise when she flirts with Stanley. In that play there is this quote that I must say, even in grade 12 English stuck out to me, I never forgot it.
“there are things that happen between a man and a woman in the dark—that sort of make everything else seem—unimportant,”

I'm going to get things together.
And from the bottom there is no way to go but up.
And I'm still sleeping on the couch. But I'm starting to like it.