Everything's more beautiful because we're doomed. ♥.

Now I've gone through some really hard times and dealt with some really bad situations but this is unlike anything else.
The difference?
The enemy is within me.
So I gained weight, and I feel absolutely sick about it.
All my hard work to get into double digits and keep going lower and now I'm oh-so-close to being back in the triple digits and that scares me.
I'm not strong enough to do this.
But then he says he's so proud of me for gaining weight. I cant even remember the last time someone told me they were proud of me. So with that out on the table, what's a girl to do?
There is that voice telling me I need to be in control and I need to keep disappearing. But I want to make him happy. So, there's my demon telling me to keeping dying and then my heart telling me I need to live, for him.
And I wish this was all so much easier.


Summer, the moment I knew I was going to fall in love I always wished that summer would never end, that we could be so young, carefree and live out the long summer days forever. I never knew it would be like this, so different than I had imagined. And so much better. You Are My Light, You Are My Endless Summer.